I love him so much
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Danity Kane- One Shot
Topic: About Him

Well I am in a good mood for a few reasons. One is that I passed my test. Two I am closer to getting my degree and Three I got to talk to Andrew. Things are great.

I love talking to him. He makes things even more better than before. I really hope he comes home in december. I been thinking about him a whole lot and I cant wait to show him when he gets home. :)

well I dont have much to say. I have to finish getting ready for work.

can being in love be a crazy thing.
Mood:  quizzical
Now Playing: Ashlee Simpson-Love me for me
Topic: About Him

I mean can you be so much in love with someone that you can drive yourself crazy. I mean I love andrew more than life itself and I would give up my life for him. Is that being crazy. Am I wasting my time aiming toward a guy who may not want to be with me like i want to be with him.

I been in love with this guy for a long time. Getting back in contact with him change my entire life. I became a brand new Shareka and without him  I dont think I would be different or feel this way about a guy.

Its hard seeing him with someone else. Well it hurts a whole lot and I wish I could have my chance. I sometimes wonder if I do. I cant change my feelings for him no matter how hard I try and believe me I have tried so many times. It doesnt work as planned. I been trying to find a way to tell him what I am going through but he isnt having a good time where he is. something is bothering him and he wont tell me and it hurts so much that he wont tell me. I wish he could tell me, showing me isnt engough right now. I wish he could tell me as a friend. i mean we are friends first before anything right. idont know anymore on what to do. help

untitled
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: Nsync- I just wanna be with you
Topic: About Him

Sitting here on my day off from work thinking about andrew. I wasnt myself last night and i found myself depressed and crying. I didnt tell anyone I just kept it to myself. I dont know why I felt that way. Istill feel that way but I am not so sure why.

I know that i wasnt me and I was someone else or something. I dont think that I am making sense anymore. The only thing that makes me feel a little better is writing. Well at times I feel better. I thought of what would happen if I was with Andrew and not Daniela. I am not so sure on how to explain it. 

I never thought that I could be emotional. I never thought that I would let certain things get to me. All I can say is that I love Andrew so much and his happiness is so important to me. All my friends happiness is important. I dont like seeing them sad or whatever. I dont knowwhat else to say about it but there are a lot of things on my mind and I have to sort it out and see what I can do to make things better. well thats all for now.

Getting sleep and being positive
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: Justin Timberlake - Sexy Back
Topic: About Him

Andrew sent me a email today. Him and his fiance are having a fight. I hate to see him having a fight. I do want to be there for him.  I don't know exactly what to say about it beside the fact that I want him to be happy for matter what. I am going to be postitive and be supportive of my friend because I love him. I told myself I won't tell him that I love him until he says it to me. I don't want to keep saying it and not have it being returned back to me. I know that somewhere deep down he is feeling the same way. I want him to be able to say it when he is ready and then I can say it to him. 

Work is fineand so far no problems. I want to make it through today and tommorrow and then they wont see me until monday by then I am hoping to get more sleep and be able to manage myself again. I been a little distracted lately and I have to get myself back on track. This is so not me.  I know that things happen for a reason and in time it all wil be revealed and I am going to be paient and see what will happen. Well  I think that I am finish writing this entry. Thanks for those who read it. If you want to post comments I love hearing them. Thanks also for reading my webpage. well thats all for now and until the next update.

My day of thinking of some sort
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: Nsync-This I promise You
Topic: About Him
I know that I talked about Andrew but I cant help it. He is great. We talked alot this weekend and I enjoy it very much and I can't wait to do it again. It was so good to talk to him and I miss him so much. I wonder do he think about me as much as I do. I think about him all do. I been having dreams about him and what will happen when he gets home.  I am a little scared about what is going to happen but i will be prepared