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October 24, 2006

 

 

I been thinking about my granddad a whole lot lately and that got me to thinking more about my life. I thought about the things he would tell me and those things are how I got to be the person that I am today. I know that in my heart that he will always be there for me even if he isn’t alive.

 

This December marks two years that he died. It’s a little sad that he isn’t here but I think about the good times and it makes things better. So I been thinking about what he would do since I been feeling like crap about my job and somewhat my life and I came to this conclusion.

 

For right now I know that things are not going right and I have to make the best out of it. With my job until something else comes along I just do may best and work from there. If they don’t appreciate it than its their lost. You can only do so much for people and as for my life if your not happy well do something about it. Try to do things that will make you happy even if you look back on your life and find something that you use to do to make you happy and do it.

 

So I thought why not do that. I am back  to my writing and I am almost finish with school. I am at my last lesson on that once I am finish with that I am done and I would have graduated. I can’t wait. I am so excited. I haven’t realized how excited I am about this. It one of the things that makes me happy. There are other things but I am not going to say what they are. Only people who knows me knows the answer to that.

 

With my friends I know that I can only help them out the best that I can. I am not going to worry myself too much that I am not able to help them out the way I can. They know they can come to me and talk about anything and I will be there for them.

 

I know that life doesn’t go as planned I mean I understand that I am just going to go with the flow and do what I need to do. Sometimes life doesn’t go as planned but its up to you to do what you can to make it better and that is what I am going to do. I am going to make the best out of life and make my dreams come true. I just have to take it one step at a time and that is what I am going to do.

 

I still miss my granddad and I wish he was here but since he isn’t I know that he is watching me and protecting me from anything. Even though he isn’t here I celebrate our birthday that we share together each year. I mean I know that he may or may not know but I like to think that he knows and it makes him happy that I find things to share our birthday doing. I don’t have plans yet but I will soon. I am actually working on doing some yoga at home. It’s a good idea to relieve stress and aim it somewhere else which is really what I need. I cant wait to start it.

 

I am also working on my new years resolutions. I know that it is early but I figure that if I start early making them I will be able to do them. I completed most of them and some that I really didn’t think about I did also. They tie into my goals that I want to accomplish them. I don’t know what was the point I was trying to make.

 

So right now I am pretty much excited about things. So now I am in a much better mood that I was in my previous entries and it’s a really good thing. I am back on being positive and trying to make myself even more happy than I was before. I am glad to be back somewhat to the way I am. Anyway work is going okay. I know that things about work is going to work out. I am planning on when I am getting my degree I am going to find a nearby hotel or inn to work at and gain experience there and work towards getting my own business one day. I am thinking about in the next few years I should be able to start working on getting my own inn. I cant wait. I am working on my business plan. It is going to take some time to accomplish but with all the books recommendations I should be able to run my inn successfully.